March...I love March because that means Spring is right around the corner.  In New York though, that's not really the case.  It's still pretty cold here but feeling a little more like fall.  (Fall for me now means 40's or 50's)  Since the weather has been a little on the depressing side, my parents offered to fly me home to experience some warm weather.  So I ventured down to South Carolina to get a little break from the city, soak up some sun, and figure out some life decisions.  My time at home was wonderful!  Believe it or not, I had two golf lessons.  I think that golf is a great sport to learn to play...it gives me something to do with my dad when I go home, it's a fun activity that Jordan and I can do together, and it's just a good sport to have under your belt.  I actually really enjoyed my two lessons and started playing a little bit.  I will say this...it's a very frustrating sport and takes a lot of patience.  Hopefully I won't get too frustrated and give up!

Besides golf lessons, I got to enjoy cooking new things with my mom, hanging out with Walter (our dog), and having some great conversations with my dad.  I love seeing how my relationship with my dad is changing.  We are now at the point that we can work as a team and talk like adults and make decisions together.  I am so thankful for that and blessed that he is willing to support me in whatever I decide.   Lately, I have been feeling the Lord pulling me in other directions.  There are so many gifts that He has blessed me with and so many of those I haven't even begun to explore.  When the Lord asks me 'what did you do with the gifts that I gave you?', I want to be able to say with full confidence that I did everything I could to use all of my gifts.  Being in New York has been very tough for me.  It's just a harsh city that goes completely against my personality.  Also, I am realizing that this career of Musical Theatre is not for me, at least up here in NYC.  It breaks my heart to say that because I don't want people to think that I am giving up and throwing in the towel.  I have no idea how the Lord will use my performance gifts later down the road.  I am excited to see where He takes me!

While at home, I had great conversations with my mom and dad about what should be my next step.  So, here's the plan....I am going to finish out March and finish what I came here to do.  Come April 1st, I will pack up everything and head home for the month of April and maybe a little bit of May.  Once things get nailed down and set in stone, I will be moving back to Nashville and getting my Masters so I can pursue a career in Music Education.  Just talking about this plan makes me so excited and so secure in what the Lord is doing.  I am ready to get started on the journey that He wants for me.  There is still a lot of room for change, but at least I know the direction I am going!  I cannot wait to have joy, confidence, organization, and the south back into my life.  Will there be things I will miss about NYC?  Of course.  The number one thing I will miss the most are the people that have pretty much become my family up here.  They create such a supportive and loving environment that I will miss terribly.

My new best friend

 

 

 

Walter--he brings so much joy!

My parents are going to France and have been learning French with their Rosetta Stone!  They are so cool.

I love home.  I get to see God's beauty every day!